that was a quick trip.

apparently i have to learn some things twice.

after nickel and diming my recovery by taking two days off here, two days there?

i’m sick again. i’m sore. i’m exhausted. i can’t hold my head up for very long and i can’t take very big steps.

i can’t even pull the foil lids off my yoplait without a LOT of effort.

yeah.

last night, i crawled into bed at 5:30 and i didn’t get out until 8:30 this morning. and, even then, it was brutal.

two of my coworkers flat-out cornered me in the hallway and told me that i needed to leave. “the work will get done,” one of them said. “your body needs time to heal,” the other one said.

and i cried.

and i cried some more. and a few hours later i went into my boss’s office and blurted out, “i’m not OK!”

and i cried some more.

and she told me to leave. get better. we’ll figure it out. take the time. whatever you need to do.

why are my coworkers nicer to me than i am to myself?

it’s an interesting thought. i thought this was the year where i had to bust my ass and earn what was coming to me. now, i’m starting to see that that “lesson” was a red herring… i was so focused on that that i didn’t even see the warnings that this is the year i have to do more than think about it… i must learn to love myself.

Advertisements

1 Comment

Filed under Uncategorized

One response to “that was a quick trip.

  1. You absolutely need to learn to love yourself. You can't be any good to anyone if you're not good to yourself first.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s